Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Supposedly yesterday should be our 5month anniversary.
I am missing you so much, yet don't know how you feel.
I'm truly is a silly girl isn't it, silly boy?
What am I exactly expecting? I'm expecting you to be ready again.
I'm expecting you to be relax around me.
I'm expecting you to be happy with me.
I'm expecting you to talk to me.
I'm expecting to see you.
I'm expecting to be in your life.
I'm expecting that you could tell me what you are troubling.
I'm expecting so much.
Falling for you is the best thing but stopping to love you is the worst thing ever.
Have you ever though of having that rush to see me? I do.
Do you miss me? I do.
Whatever you have told me once is kept in my heart forever.
You're the one who said will love me for life.
You're the one who said you are proud to have me by your side.
You're the one who will melt my heart.
The letter, the kisses, the hugs and everything you gave me..
All is what make me melting.
I'm sorry for not being good enough or care for you enough.
Do you remember the day we spent? Or you already forgotten all?
I hope you didn't.
Watching movie with you, going out with you and being at your side
all is what I want to do with you.
I'm willing to wait but..
I'm afraid while you are still getting ready, you might end up falling for others.
Why can't you don't ask for break up?
Why are you saying you are not good enough?
Two more days, I'm leaving for two weeks.
Though of meeting you. Guess you are busy.
Whatever it takes, I will become selfish enough for not letting you go again, when we patch back.
Love is selfish, there are lots of meaning of love.
I want you and only you.
♥130411, you took my breathe away when our lips touches each other
7:03 AM
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
我想知道我到底在你心中是什么？
我不想做你的朋友，我只想做你的女朋友。
难道你真的只想做朋友吗？
我不想离开你。你呢？
I want to know where exactly am I standing in your heart?
I don't wanna be your friend, I want to be your girlfriend and more than that.
Do you really want to be friend?
I don't wanna leave your side, you?
You said you love me is serious.
Now do you? I really want to be back to your side.
Why am I like this..
I never had this kind of strong feeling and never want to let it go.
You making me falling for you so deeply.
I just feel like calling you "baby" instead of your name.. Can I? :x
♥130411, you took my breathe away when our lips touches each other
4:44 AM
Monday, September 12, 2011
Boy, what's on your mind? I'm really curious to know.
I can't really read your mind and I'm hoping to know.
I'm also curious are we going to get back together and am I still important to you?
You are important to me and I never want to lose you.
I'm always here for you even though I can't be by your side often but I will pick up your calls or reply you.
I really miss those days we spent.
I miss your hugs, kisses and all.
I miss hearing your voice and miss staying by your side.
If I could do one thing to get back to your side I would.
I don't want any other girls to have you.
Sorry for being selfish.
♥130411, you took my breathe away when our lips touches each other
7:38 AM
Today morning went to school quite late.. Once reach class didn't know what to do.. About 8.43am went to coop buy drinks.. Forgotten to bring my angry bird to school.. :x Fall asleep in class while doing presentation.. :x Dam tired! School ended at 11.30am, went to matrix to have lunch then came home to change and then go lot 1 to return books and fine.. Have shopping too.. About 2.30pm leave lot 1 and go Serangoon meet mummy to buy jeans, panties and bra.. Wasn't happy at first when mummy bring me to buy things.. Because when we went in to whatever shop, she would tell the sales person that I'm going to Philippines.. -.- After that I didn't feel unhappy anymore because I try to cool myself by telling her jokes and I could also smile and laugh along.. About 7.30pm leave grandmother house.. Take cab home because I bought a lot of things.. On the way home, the road was very jam.. The taxi driver stop, drive, stop, drive till headache.. Tomorrow gonna start pack my stuff! And tomorrow I have test! Hope I could pass! All the best to all! :)
♥130411, you took my breathe away when our lips touches each other
7:07 AM
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Yesterday went all the way to valley point, Starbucks and studies..
Didn't really study in at all.. About 5.30pm, James came in Starbucks to work..
I was shocked because I was expecting he's walking in from the back instead of the front!
I was totally heart beat fast and didn't dare to look at him because I know my face is super red!
Yan Ni and Hua Ying keep on asking me to go talk to him!! My face was super red at that time and if I just go to him and talk it will sure weird and his friends sure will ask him who am I..
After that Yan Ni and Hua Ying keep say he's walking to us and I was like OMG!
Can't believe that it's already going to be 1month I never seen him and I could feel I'm back to that shy Joyce, that very first day I met him and he send me home..
I was hoping to see him again before flying off..
I miss him more after seeing him yesterday! Could I live in your heart and house, like forever? :x
Living in your house forever is like impossible right? :x
But living in your heart is it possible?
PS, I Love You.
♥130411, you took my breathe away when our lips touches each other
5:46 AM
Thursday, September 8, 2011
I miss you a lot a lot.
I wish I could be at your side now.
I wish I'm hugging you tightly now.
I miss your hugs, kiss and everything.
Missing you more each day.
Going to leave Singapore on 17/09/2011, 12.30am..
I was hoping to meet you out before I leaving.
Or even thinking that before going, hope we could patch.
I really really hope you are ready to let me be back to your side.
I want us to last long and long.
PS, I Love You.
♥130411, you took my breathe away when our lips touches each other
8:50 AM
Pass two days I made papa angry because I didn't help him massage his shoulder. He switched off the light and modem.. Today don't really talk to papa and I was in my room since I reach home.. I did went to bath! Morning walking to school saw Ting Ting and gave her the dark chocolate that I had bought for her yesterday when I went to orchard to take my salary and went to isetan to buy chocolate.. Yesterday I did badly for my class test.. I fail!! All the piglets had passed, I'm the only one who fail because I just do the MCQ by myself.. They were asking each other is the answer correct but I didn't.. Was quite angry with them happily outside or when their result come out they were all happy and don't really care how I feel.. Last time when they pass I comfort them but now none comfort me.. So I hide my emotion behind and act happy in front of them.. After take finish salary, we went to shop awhile and take train back to woodlands because Hua Ying keep insisted on buying the stuff that we going to bring to Philippines.. So no choice got to go with her and accompany her but we share money to buy all the stuff.. Today at school didn't really have mood to study because I was hoping school could end quickly so I could go to his house but end up never go at all.. School end at 5.30pm and I was messaging asking what he's doing.. He played game the whole day.. Just as I expected.. If I go what would I be doing? He and I have never seen each other for about 1month already and I'm afraid my heart will beat dam fast and face sure will be red like an apple! Or I even think if I go he also won't really face and look into my eye that much.. We both sure will be PS? I really hope I was at his house now and watching him playing his game or sitting beside him.. When we were sleeping I just hope he will just hug me tightly.. Watching him and staying beside him just make me feel good and feel more home.. He's the one who make me feel home and never wanted to stop loving him.. I'm hoping so much he and I could patch back.. If we really patch back I hope the months we spend together could continue and last longer! I want last longer than his previous r/s!.. Two days ago he asked maybe he and I should meet up before I leaving.. And he say he miss me a lot too, feel sorry that he treated us this way.. I wondering when are we going to patch back? I really wanna go back to his side.. If I could I hope next week I could meet him!! I really miss him a lot a lot! I just couldn't stop thinking about him and hoping to see him, if I could I want to hug him tightly and kiss him.. :x I had a dream about him pass one night.. I dream that he called me and asked me that his jacket is with me uh? I say no but he keep telling me don't lie.. I keep on saying no and he say nevermind and asked his sister through the phone while we were talking on the phone.. End up he say something that really make me rushing down his house and knock on his door begging him don't ignore me and don't leave me.. I was crying at the same time.. I woke up immediately.. I was so scared and don't dare to fall back sleep again but end up I sleep back with a peaceful sleep.. I wish he won't do this to me if not I really will go to his house knocking on his door and call him to open the door.. :x
♥130411, you took my breathe away when our lips touches each other
8:43 AM
Monday, September 5, 2011
Today lots of things happen.. Once reach school saw Siew Ping and Pei Ni walking a head of me but I didn't call them.. Whole day in class didn't really talk.. Everything wasn't good at all.. Have a talk and all was talking their unhappy things with Darrien.. Was quite angry with it but end up was about to cry.. I try not to cry because this friendship isn't going to work anymore.. It has happen for two times and not all was happy.. Once there conflict nothing really can change back.. Wanted to say out more but I just kept quiet.. Why ITE life is so confusing! Why are friends in ITE so *four letter words*?! Friends have change a lot and my best friend isn't even have time to meet me out or even ask how am I doing.. Where exactly have my best friend gone to? I no longer really know my best friend well anymore.. She change a lot.. I just feel like talking to someone who could hear me out.. I'm tired already.. what am suppose to do? CA keep ask me how am I and asking me about him (James).. Thanks CA for asking.. No much time for studying already! Next week have test and flying off on 17/09, 12.30am! 0_0!!!!
♥130411, you took my breathe away when our lips touches each other
2:55 AM
What should I do?
I'm missing you everyday.
Missing you just make me think what you are doing
and have you eaten or even have a proper rest?
Thinking/Worrying that some other girls might be making you falling for them.
Why am I so afraid of losing you? I'm really afraid.
Not having you is just simply instant.
♥130411, you took my breathe away when our lips touches each other
2:41 AM
Friday, September 2, 2011
Cherish the one you love and do not wait till the one you love have gone.
Have been talking about you a lot.
I really Miss You a lot.
I won't give you up and will be there for you.
I want to return to your side.
Thinking about all the things that we had done together just make me smile.
Wishing and hoping we could get back together.
I still want to do a lot of things with you.
I wanna grow old with you and never wanted to stop loving you.
Since the day we are together there's nothing stopping me from loving you.
Have plan to watch movie with you, going out with you or even staying by your side.
You the one who make my heart beat fast and melted my heart.
No one could replace you.
I Love You, James Wee Chin Kuan.
♥130411, you took my breathe away when our lips touches each other
6:47 AM
Woke up at 10.13am then on com check stuff and go bath.. About 11.05am leave house to go lot 1 meet Yan Ni and Hua Ying to eat then 12.17pm go sundac do community service.. Do until 2.20pm then go lot 1 library see got space to let us studies then at the end went to woodlands coffee beans studies.. Actually wanted to go Valley Point studies but Yan Ni keep don't want said very far so we end up go woodlands.. At coffee beans studies for 3hours.. 5.30pm Yan Ni leave first because she's going tampines Ikea buy bed.. Left me and Hua Ying study till 6pm and go to singtel see the phone that mummy have told me then we go popular see notebook.. Me and Hua Ying bought same notebook.. We two went to Mac see got place to let us sat down and eat but don't have so we went to basement to see got any food to eat at the end we went to guardians and Watson shop and see.. Dam funny! We both was like looking at all the stuff that we are going to buy to go Philippines use want.. After that we buy Korea rice cake eat and went all the way up to food court to find place to sit and eat.. We chat and talk about Darrien and Siew Ping.. We no longer treat Darrien as our friend anymore.. I have say cleanly at Facebook to Siew Ping that if she's really going to be like Darrien then it's seriously stupid! I feel like scolding Darrien on Monday and Siew Ping too.. This two people is really very 欠扁 lo!! About 8.17pm reach CCK and was looking around whether Carine was there but no one is there so I came back home straight.. Actually meeting them to go Chu Da funeral but at the end they never plan properly end up I came home..
♥130411, you took my breathe away when our lips touches each other
6:34 AM
Thursday, September 1, 2011
I miss you.
Will be waiting for you no matter what.
Hope you are ready again.
I want to be back to your side.
I will always be here for you.
Having you in my life is all I want now.
Hoping to have you back as soon as possible.
I Love You and always will.
♥130411, you took my breathe away when our lips touches each other
3:40 AM
Today reach school at about 7.50am.. Went up to class outside wait for Pei Ni, Hua Ying and Cui Lin to come.. The three of them went to shop and save.. We waited for teacher to come and at the end Mr Terrence came to help us open the door and let us go in first.. We went in and waited for Mr Mak, our dear CA to come.. Very little people came to school today.. Going to 10am like that Kimberly, Judy and Sankeri came into class and take a cake.. It's for our dear CA's Mr Mak.. Happy Teacher's Day to all my dearest teacher! Couldn't make it to go back to secondary and primary school.. Hope next year I could go back with my bunch of primary and secondary school.. During first break me, Yan Ni, Hua Ying, Pei Ni and Cui Lin went to matrix and eat.. About 11.17am we go to another lesson.. Less and less people go to lesson! About 1pm, we plan to go straight to Dover for our last injection but for Pei Ni is her first two injection.. Cui Lin go with us is because we don't really want her to be alone in school so we asked her to come along.. About 2.04pm reach the clinic and it's full of west side ITE people!! About 3.43pm for Philippines trips' people have finish their injection and we still wait for some of our friends to inject finish.. Darrien posted he wanted to have a talked with us on Monday but we all insisted today.. So he's the only one at there talk and Cui Lin did talk out but the rest of us kept quiet because we don't want to quarrel in front of others... So at the end the talked had finish and we (Cui Lin, Pei Ni, me, Hua Ying and Yan Ni) walk away.. I was dam angry with what Darrien had said! He should know why we avoid and he's the reason we all avoid and we didn't want to avoid Siew Ping.. Yesterday was Siew Ping Birthday, ya.. We had already plan to buy cake but we have no time to go out of school to buy cake and we were rushing our work.. If this is the reason Siew Ping cried, we are sorry that we didn't manager to help you celebrate.. And we did already plan to buy you a present but we really have no time to buy.. So I text Siew Ping immediately I at bus stop waiting for bus.. I really can't take it anymore.. I really feel like telling Siew Ping, she now might think that she's happy to be with Darrien but once everything turn out like this she won't be that happy anymore.. Darrien is the whole cause of it and he still deny it.. He think he have no wrong.. And Siew Ping was there keep on helping him! Siew Ping, you now might think it's okay to lose us as friends but we all really really worried about you.. You should know from the start Darrien is always the reason making this family falling apart.. If you really have to call us to be like last time, I have to said it's impossible! If we all never know Darrien, everything would be fine.. I feel like slapping or scolding bad words at Darrien just now but I 忍!! Sorry to have given Pei Ni and Cui Lin the burden.. We don't want this to happen but all the piglets should know how the last eight months are like!!
♥130411, you took my breathe away when our lips touches each other
3:37 AM
Boyfriend <3!!