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Joyce Ang
23 January is my big day
Currently study at:
TWPS|TWSS|CCK ITE
The course I'm currently in is
Multimedia Technology
Want to know me more? Please add me at crysmilejoyce@hotmail.com
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"If we live our life in fear,
I'll wait a thousand years
Just to see you smile again "

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Boyfriend <3!!
New phone!
New watch!
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Part-time Job
More pants
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Chocolate!!
Laptop
Pass N Level
New bags
first kiss
Celebrating 16|17|18 birthday

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Meet the people I love♥

PeiRu
Xinyu
PeiNi
CuiLin
Meng Zhu
Hua Ying
Ting Ting
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♥ March 2011
♥ April 2011
♥ May 2011
♥ July 2011
♥ August 2011
♥ September 2011
♥ October 2011
♥ October 2014
♥ November 2014
♥ September 2015
♥ October 2015

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Sunday, October 26, 2014

I been having bad days for this few days already. I'm really starting to have the anger in me and its fuming inside of me. I never once being treated nicely by the friends who I already know for 13years, never! I hate that she always like to compare with me. She let me  feel that she's been using me for all this years. I treat her nice and she treat me like not a friend at all. I really am disappointed.

This feel days boyfriend's mum keep on nagging me and make a very frustrated. I really dislike people keep nagging the same things over and over again. She's lucky enough that she didn't get any bad words out of my mouth. If she does then that day will be the day I really disrespect her. Now I respect her so much yet she treat me like I'm not even human like that. I really have enough of everything for this whole two years seven months. It's like not me and my boyfriend relationship at all. Is more like I'm with his mum together for this two years plus. I don't see that the both of us have any like communication or going out together. I'm not sure is this relationship really going to last really long a not as I really am tired of it and my heart don't seems to be here anymore. My heart seems to fly back home. I need a peaceful life. Maybe I just need my freedom back badly. I know whatever I've say here could never be amend or could never be forgive by my boyfriend. He love me but he can't help me much as his mum will sure come to me and screw me. I do love him but I really not the type of girl that your family or you want it to be. I don't like comparing. Your mum like to take other girls who also have boyfriend to compare with me. Ya, I don't speak that much or don't seems to care at all.

I'm really sorry and I'm really tired already. Please let me go home and we could continue the relationship even I'm not staying at your house anymore. I do love you. But I beg you to set me free from your house and let me return to mine. Thanks for your caring and everything. I love you.

Xoxo,
Joyce Ang

Monday, October 13, 2014

Today was suppose to sleep till very comfortable then wake up at 7am wash up then go to school but ended up my grandma keep waking me up at 6am till 7am! This few days grandma seems to keep forgetting or repeating the same thing.. I'm worried for her. Today celebration is sucks! Bored to the max, everyone was like not into this celebration at all.. about 11am plus the celebration ended, went to matrix to find Cui Lin they all and have lunch.. After that we slack awhile at school then go Lot 1 find Siew Ping then go K-Box together and have a good time singing! I did actually sing in front of this few friends of mine! Have my second lunch at K-Box too! Dam full after that but it's worth it, I guess? James message me in the afternoon, even we both broke-up but still friends. I know that this period of times he have love me truthfully from the start just that studies have make him too stress to handle anything now. I feel that yesterday letting him go, my heart seems to not letting go instead is the words that I have text him letting him go.. I saw what he tweeted. His heart hurting is because he never wanted to end it but he having trouble to handle his studies and wanted to have his own life. I will stay happy but will never stop loving him. Sorry that I have love you this much but now being back to your friend is the only way to stay in contact.

Who can I actually talk to when I really need someone to talk to..? Boyfriend? I don't think so.. Friends? All seems to have happy life than me so why trouble them with my problem..? Family? They would give me advice but could never help me with it.. I really need my freedom back... I feel like I'm really gonna suffocating already.. Everyday staying here facing your mum for two years six months, I didn't ask much or request much. All I need was a space of my own couldn't I? I don't seems to have any freedom to do the things I like. I have to go by your mum rules. As I already tolerated for this long I really need a break. I know what I say here are gonna hurt you badly inside out. I give you freedom so please give me too. I'm a human and others' people daughter not a maid that came here help you do everything and expect so much. I have show my true self bits by bits. I really cannot hide behind the mask anymore. People told me to leave but I just can't. I do love him. I also admit I still couldn't forget my ex. I waited for six months plus for my ex and end up he didn't even reply a single bits until I'm in a relationship he contacted me.. I was angry at that moment and he also have a girlfriend already. Why still come find me when I plan to not waiting for you anymore? Why? Why want me to continue like this missing you and waiting for you? Why? Why do god does this to me? I'm pain inside. Which parents wish to see their daughter suffer? Protecting their daughter isn't wrong isn't it? Why my boyfriend family are so different and hard to get along with especially the mother. I feel like ending my life each day as I really miss my families and friends a lot. I have enough of all this.

Xoxo,
Joyce

Saturday, October 4, 2014

Hi James,

I know that you sure will block me from whatever contactable network or knowing how have you been.. I'm sorry that whatever happen previously. I really can't forget you. I don't know why I just can't keep stop thinking of you.. I just hope that you could contact me again and this post I have post is really important.. I really hope that you will see this post. I know I shouldn't do this. I know you already have girlfriend. But I really don't want us to become stranger.. I still want contact you. I know I'm crazy to do all this. I really miss you a lot.. James please don't avoid me can you? I.. I need you...  it's been 3years since we broke up and it's really hard to forget about you.. 3years already I still couldn't put down everything and its seems simple for you to put down everything and whatever my current boyfriend did I'm sincerely apologized for it.. Even if I'm having my last breathe I want to tell you that I miss you and I love you. Sorry for everything.

Love you,
Joyce