
Saturday, October 3, 2015
Yesterday went to find mummy have dinner together. Mummy asked me what exactly happen the day before yesterday. I told her that once his mum come back give me black face then slowly give me attitude then I can't take it anymore my temper start to boil and she slam door, close drawer loudly. That's when I texted mummy and told her I can't take it anymore I want move over to grandma place. Then mummy call me and ask me need her come down, I told her yes. Mummy ytd told me she couldn't sleep well as she's worried about me. She also told me that actually my aunts and uncle want come with her as they ask my mummy what happen. She told them his mum give me attitude problem again. They were so angry about how much his mum treat me as if I don't have any families member to be there for me. I heard what my mummy told me I was about to burst into tears but I hold on to it as bf was about to come.. Mummy know that I can't take it anymore keep telling me not to care about what his mum saying just ignore and think that she's having menopause. I did think that way but she's pushing the limit to the extend that I really have to fight back on my own. Yesterday mummy told bf that he and I should go take BTO flat, at that point I was thinking "oh no, mummy please don't say anymore. I don't have the thoughts of continue this anymore."
Now what I'm thinking is once I start working I will save up and if I could get a flat of my own I would. I rather stay single than take my future as a joke. Thinking of marriage now make me think twice and thrice as its a serious matter as once you're married you can't blame anyone and if married not long want a divorce I rather don't want this kind of things happen. I would rather stay single than marriage. God I really feel like escaping. I won't go back home or find any of my friends or families. I will not let any of them come find me. I need a place to be alone. Of course thinking of money wise I have to work too but not to let them found me I'm crashing my mind.. Damn life!
♥130411, you took my breathe away when our lips touches each other
7:04 PM